in quest of a new opportunity

in this hour of crisis ... only the torch of hope is giving me the guide to move ahead in the everlasting tunnel of doom and gloom ... indeed metaphors are relatively inadequate to describe the sense of worthlessness and futility which embeds my mind. even as the projects dry up and enterprises refuse to revert , I am unable to understand where to go ... till at last by god's holy grace I am seeing a little flicker of hope ... yeah I am hoping to go open source and freelancing ... and only the almighty knows what it holds for me ... even as I go in this unknown and if I may say so (at the risk of being called proud ) a bit adventurous , I entreat the Fate Turner to have a sheilding hand on my work ... By the way 2morrow we are going on trekking ... I need this break to break the monotony of my existence and recharge my batteries ... which may propel me to ... drive me to ... best of my potential ...