when on the Road and looking for a job

what happens when inspite of ur hard work and 2 years of being continuous billing u are thrown out ... when then suddenly the news posts and blogs about performance oriented merit oriented jobs feel like a lie. as the reader must have guessed I have recently lost my job ... and yeah I am frustrated ... but still hopeful ... indeed I ask whether should i continue in this industry or not ... and if the answer is yes how ??? it is certain that it would be repeated and with other worldly responsibilities how u build a castle or even a hut in a quicksand. It is futile and worthless and I know some of u must be laughing there but .... I dont mind it ... it happens ... it is the karmic chakra of life ... the greatest detective on the planet once said ... the same spoke which goes down comes up and so rotates the wheel of time ...
let us see when my spoke comes up ???

2009 so far

this year didnt start with a bang ... no not exactly but rather with a whimp ... first we lost our project to our collaborators ... next came search for projects ... in between I acquired a bike and after 2 weeks of effort and enormous amounts of patience of my room mate ... finally learned ... however still as of today I am a novice having clocked a mere 400 kms ... in some 60 days ... yeah dont scream I know that is below par ... but i am gonna improve that ... also weekends routines have gone tighter as we "Strive" to acquire knowledge and expertise ... 'outside' our comfort zones ... and nothing short of everything inside the universe (of java I mean !!) ... it is going to be a difficult year ... as far as I can see ... well it is time for me to move over to my next task at hand ... yeah dont u see I seem to have divided or rather partitioned my life into tasks and assignments ... must stop living like that and get real. Can thing get better just like that perhaps they can if we all have some time and patience that is and yes some good old solid practice at all things we do ... however mundane or trivial it may seem ...

Being a Software Programmer

Being a software programmer was a cool thing ... atleast for the last couple of years ... not any more ... with recession staring in face ... and job layoffs being the order of the day ... there is a tremendous undercurrent of uncertainity and negativity ... and on top of that comes this fraud ... by guess who one of the most "respected" IT honchos ...
where do we go from here ... perhaps down perhaps up ... but we wont go down without a fight ... after all ... being from a top IT MNC myself ... I can assure all of them that they must not give up ... for there is so much to live and fight for ... some much to work for and live for ... we all must have patience and the calm to face the future ... yes the crdit card guy would be calling ... as also the loan provider bank ... when we miss the EMIs ... but we will bounce up ...

The scenario at the end of the year

One year has come to an end I am feeling frustrated no not at the non increase of salary but rather
at the lack of the work and lack of growth opportunities in my company. And I am seriously
thinking about a jump ... but to where ... of course outside the outsourcing industry as
this industry has got nothing left for me ... I wish I could join the gaming industry ...
but I do not know the riles of the game there

Next Leap Ahead

I regret to say that throughout my teens I achieved little. And what's hurting is that it is not because of brain power or for that matter lack of resources but was just due to the lack of focus on my part. But whats gone is gone ... It is always better to look ahead ... plan for the future ... Isn't it possible that I can leap frog from here to some place much ahead. On my basic strengths. Maybe my schooling was not in sync with my marks. But my engg. is with my career. Maybe my marks do not reflect my capacity but my attitude and my imagination surely does. So what's the plan ahead ? As far as I can see it is about developing my core strengths ... strengthening my mind ... minding my business and goals. It is also perhaps how much I can plough back value to my parents ... and in the end whether I can justify my career or not. Lets make a beginning. Lets make a try and see. For I have heard Stupid is as stupid does !

CountDown Begins Finally

And then she has arrived on the scene. But what about the other she ... well I dont care b'coz I am going to play my role and the others theirs .. lets play the game ...

Welcoming 2008

Even as 2007 passes and as a new Year 2008 comes ahead most people will wish for a hundred gifts.I would however like to thank god for whatever He(or She !!) has given me in the last one year and assure the almighty that I will try to live up to it. However if there is anything that I might ask I would ask for the ability to control my mind which is continually restless. And yes I would ask GOD to enable me to learn effeciently have courage , try out new things and continue to grow both as a person and also as a programmer. And yes my new year resoulution ( I know I may not stick to it but everyone has one so ... for me it is this) cut down on stomach flab exercise regularly. And yes I intend to go home in APRIL and give my parents lots of gifts. I may also buy a laptop. Ahh ! too many things in the pipeline. Now lets just enjoy and freeze and relax. The new year should bring a lot of hope that will help me hold on to my life and do more for my family and friends so that I may grow up more as a person and also a citizen.